hihi....long time nv update blog liao....cause i'm tryin my best to get over the whole incident...think i shld be feeling better now...but it all came to an end yesterdae....i saw my ex_dear....when goin out...she totally bo chap me...act like donno me.....when i saw tt all tt old feelings of being hurt came back to me.....its realli veri painful.....i tried to let basketball take awae tt feelings but it was too strong n i still feel veri hurt....y r u threating me this wae.....wat had i done wrong....i m realli veri sad n hurt.....i realli hope to at least remain as friends but i think tt is so not possible....i oso had the wish tt maybe after o's we still could be together....but i think after tomolo its not possible anymore.....not mani ppl noe tt we r noe tt we r no longer together anymore.....n i still have to put on a happi n laughin face b4 those hu ask me bout the both of us...cause i realli cant bring myself to sae tt we r no longer together......cause its such a difficult to sae out....so all i could do was keep quiet or juz gif a fake smile......at times when i haf nothing to do.....i still think of u n the happi times we had together.....even b4 my slp...i would think of u.....n i oso hope tt at least i can see u in my dream....cause i dont think its posible in reality.....i juz wanna be back to wat we used to be...when we were friends...but don think its possible after this relationship.....maybe we both shldnt had got into this relationship but watever...its all over.....i'm oso losin my best friend....we used to be so together n close but now even u r threating me like a stranger.....wats wrong wif me.....y r the both of u threating me this wae.....i realli cant understand n it hurts me so badly i could onli cry in my heart.......the both of u r the most impt ppl in my life but now...both of u r leavin me.....y m i so unlucky....such a saddening life....didnt noe how i survive till now......i realli hope tt the both of u could threat me like wat u'll used to threat me like.....