back to update my blog after such a long time........heez......better le.....i now can even listen to the reason without any great impact le....improvement~....horray~~.....heez.....btw...think will be updating frequently le ba....unless my ie spoil again.....hate spyware~....donno hu came out wif such a dumb thing.....brainless ass.....alot of things happen within this few months.....gonna update all inside here..........
firstly...i got my o's result le....it was alrite...for sumone hu did not study at all before the exam.....cause those stuff happen juz before o's....how could i study.....but...its ok...everything is over....glad i didnt flunk my o's......went back get result tt dae gave "u" back the books....those were the last things of urs left in my home....and i'm returning it back to u.....think this means we're both no longer related to each other or anything......did not haf the courage to face "u"....i ask sam to hlp me past back to "u".......sam ask u tt ques...and ur answer was understandable...but y does it breaks my heart so much.....i donno......"u" were one of the top scolar.....i was happi....realli happi for u....i clap hard.....but each time i clap...my heart hurts....was it because of me....tt u score worst for ur prelim then for ur o's....so...before o's u decided to leave me and concentrate on ur studies.....was it me........i did not noe.......
enroled into np.....everytime i look at the book tt told us which poly offers which course....i will remember tt we both once decided to go to tp together for hotel management.....but....u were a top scolar.....so u went jc.......i don blame u.......cause it will be a waste if u went to poly wif tt results of urs.......but in the first place.....would u still wanna go poly wif me...i don think so......we were both off each others life........
got my saxophone le.......i feel happi......but at the same time....empty...cause one of the reason y i wanted to get a sax is cause of "u".....but now u r no longer in my life le.....so...feels kind of empty looking and playing tt instrument.....but...its still my dream.....maybe one dae when i can haf a concert of my own...i can send u the tickets to my concert.......and hope tt u would come see my dream come true.....oso...i miss playing in a band....i miss the times when we were care free and could juz play music together.......now...i feel so alone.....
now...i'm soon gonna be bankurpt......left wif 80 bucks in my bank....so sad.....got my contact lens le~......got blue and brown colour de....wahhaa.....
think i gonna die soon....yesterdae when i was bathing....my nose bleed all of a sudden....alot of blood came out.....i was so shocked......then....xingzhen send me "tong hua" mtv....in tt mtv....the gurl nose bleed while kissing wif tt guy.....and in the end....she died.....i linked the incident of me nose bleeding to tt mtv.....will i die.....when i die....will there be anyone there for me.....?the present situation tells me a no.....not in a chance........